Saturday, May 05, 2007

I'm Sad...............Warning sad post.

My cat died this morning.

Spooka was almost 16 years old--skinny, but active and happy.

Just last night she was begging for some leftover sausage, jumping up and sleeping on our high bar stools.

It's funny, because as I was waking up this morning, I could've sworn I heard her purring even though I had my door shut and there were no other cats were in my room.

She was in the hallway in her usual sphinx position, but she didn't follow me in the kitchen as she always does. She didn't move.

I sat next to her, and I could tell something was wrong. Her eyes looked glassy and she wasn't blinking. She started purring when I started petting her--but she wouldn't get up.

I sat with her a few minutes more and then she tried to get up, but her back legs failed her.

I picked her up and carried her in my room and put a light blanket over her and started crying. I went in the kitchen to grab the phone book to call the vet and I just broke down.

I had spooka for so long......I never had one of my pets die on me as an adult.

My daughter gets up and overhears me crying--soon she's crying too.

We both go back to the bedroom and sit with Spooka. My regular vet does not open until 10AM, and she's a long drive away for me I call a closer 24 hour hospital...and I don't know what to say...

"I think my cat's dying" is all I can muster. They tell me to bring her in anytime and that their doors are always open.

Spooka is still purring. She tries to get up again, but her legs won't hold her up. She lays on her side and starts breathing more shallow, her purring is quieter

My daughter and I start getting dressed, and I get the cat carrier out of the garage.

I come back to check on Spooka a couple of minutes later, but she's already gone.

Not sure what took her so quickly, perhaps it was a stroke (if cats get them)--maybe it was just old age. But I'm glad she was happy yesterday and she didn't seem to suffer.

And I'm especially glad that she waited until we woke up to say goodbye.

I'll miss you Spooka!


Blogger Sonia said...

Oh that's so sad, I'm sorry for you... at least she had a long and happy life!! Hope you feel better soon.

7:33 PM  
Blogger Firefly's Running said...

((((Hugs)))) I am SO sorry for the loss.

6:27 AM  
Blogger Jess said...

I'm so sorry for your loss!

10:45 AM  
Blogger Kristen D. said...

I am so sorry about your cat! My husband and I have one cat, and he is definitely part of our family, so I do know how you feel. I'm glad that she hung on so that you could say goodbye, and that she could be at home with you and your daughter. Best wishes to you.

6:55 PM  
Blogger teacherwoman said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a pet is extremely hard.


9:54 AM  
Blogger runliarun said...

Oh, this is so sad. But it is fortunate, as you said, that she did not suffer long. And she died at home - I think this is so much better than the hopital, for cats and for humans alike.

11:34 AM  
Blogger Full Metal Lunchbox said...

I'm really, really sorry for your loss.

Unusual for a blog post to make me cry in public like this.

2:04 PM  
Blogger Backofpack said...

I'm sorry for your loss - losing a beloved pet is so hard.

5:36 PM  
Blogger Kurt said...

I am sorry about your loss also. I know how it is to get attached and spend so much time.

It sounds like she went peacefully and she was with the one's who loved her. I bet she passed on feeling content to be with you and part of your life.

6:37 AM  
Blogger Dori said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! Sixteen is pretty old for a cat. I still think about my kitty, and he's been gone for over 5 years. I hope the pain eases soon. I'll bet you were a great Mom-cat and you can take comfort from that.

10:51 AM  

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